Where to begin. There is oh so much I could say. Things have been rather crazy for our family. I think I've mentioned this before but years ago Zach and I both felt like we should move back to AZ but we kind of just put it off cause Zach wasn't getting a job with Boeing and we just felt like if we moved back to AZ that he would stay with Boeing. When we came out for Christmas we both felt like maybe we needed to have the faith and say we would either get a job offer by May in AZ or we would start looking at owning more property in Oklahoma.
When Zach got a job offer with Hexcel we were both a little like what? Casa Grande, really? Honestly I hadn't ever even been to Casa Grande except driving through to Tucson. But Zach felt good about the company and he felt like it was a good fit so we said yes. They wanted him to start May 16th. Which honestly was super hard for me.
You see the girls only had about 2 1/2 weeks left of school and Elsie had a ballet performance the last week of May and then the girls had a couple more softball games left and we didn't feel we could just bail. So I stuck it out, did all the end of the year stuff by myself, kept the house immaculate all by myself (well the girls helped), I was here all day the day they packed up our house and the day they loaded everything on the truck. I had to make sure to keep everyone in one corner that I would need for at least a couple months. I had no idea when we would actually get all our stuff. One of the girls friends who lives around the corner made us dinner that night and let us swim in their pool which was really super amazing of them. After the moving company had moved everything a lady down the street from us who is so super sweet asked us if we wanted to come over for dinner a few days later. My Mom was there with me by then and so we took her up on that. We did go to the science center that day and then headed to her house. What a true sweetheart she is! She truly set such an amazing example to me. She loves freely and she gives freely as well.
Well the day we flew out from Oklahoma was quite the day! I mean we packed 15 bags and brought them all with us. It was everything we needed to live for a while without our stuff. My Mom came to help me with that and we made it safely to AZ on a plane with all 4 of my kids. My sweet baby Evelyn even fell asleep on me for a bit before we landed. We were finally in AZ!
I thought because I was with Zach and because we were finally in AZ everything would get better from there. Little did I know that I was pregnant and the heat is torture not pregnant but when pregnant it's awful! It was pretty funny cause we were in a store and I said Zach I think I might need to take a pregnancy test, I don't know if I am but I feel pregnant. After taking a pregnancy test at 4am I realized I was pregnant. Zach and I were both shocked! But non the less it is what it is. I finally had my 1st doctors visit last week and he said I'm 14 weeks so right now I'm 15 weeks. It's so hard to even fathom all of this! I haven't really even had time to process any of this because life has been so extremely crazy!
We ended up living with Zach's Parents for about 6 weeks and lets just say this, while we are so very grateful for their hospitality it is so wonderful to be in our own home, in our own beds with our own things. We closed on our home July 24th, technically we signed papers on the 23rd. The house was officially our on the 24th. That's the day the movers came and unpacked everything. We had 5 guys come and they were busy most of the day and so was I. I had to mark off every box that came into our house. It was like 113 degrees outside that day and they kept our door open all day long! So therefore it was super hot and I didn't get a chance to drink near the amount of water I should have. I also started getting a headache, but I made it through the day by some miracle. Zach finally got home right after they left and I'm like I do not feel good. He's like you don't look so good, go lay down. We were going to go back to Mesa that night but I felt terrible so we just stayed. I took a little nap and then we decided to go find something to eat because I needed something in my stomach. When we got home I literally put a sheet on my bed and was out cold. That was a hard day. I had all 4 of my kids with me and they kept spilling water and popsicles everywhere. I'm pretty sure I had heat exhaustion and it was all just very overwhelming.
We are now officially paying 2 mortgages, but last night we finally got an offer on our home! What? Just when I was starting to loose hope. Our realtor called and asked us if we would be okay painting our home and I'm like why we just painted. He said he had another realtor walk through the home and he also had other realtor say they didn't like the paint so he suggested changing it based on the market standard. After a long weekend of fasting and praying we decided to humble ourselves and trust what the realtor said even though that was super hard for me. Well we tell him that Monday morning and then that day we had 2 showings and the realtor told us to hold off painting till tomorrow. Well they finally put in an offer really late that night. It was as if we had to put forth just that little bit more faith and trust in our realtor and in God.
I feel like a little kid who just opened the best Christmas gift. I know it's not over yet but I truly feel so blessed to have even gotten an offer at this point. Our home is beautiful, anyone would be lucky to own it, I truly feel that way but it just took a while. The home we bought in AZ is not nearly as nice looking but it is bigger. I don't love the way houses look in AZ but I'm sure it will grow on me. The storage space in this home is also very limited. All in all I feel very grateful to my Heavenly Father for the little tender mercies he shows us when we are ready for them. I have been pretty stressed about our home in Oklahoma and I'm so glad things are finally happening. I have also been so stressed about this new baby, but really I haven't thought a whole lot about it. I get to find out what I'm having August 30th. I just hope and pray that I can get through this whole experience without too much damage. I've dealt with postpartum depression to some extent with all my kids and I'm so nervous about that. I pray that it all works out and I can stay focused and happy.
My house is slowly coming together and it feels like I'll never be on top of things but we are together again as a family and I know everything will all work out. I know that family is truly the most important thing. I know Satan wants to destroy families and I know he joys in our weaknesses and watching us struggle. But I also know there is a God who loves us freely and wants us to be happy. He is the most constant thing in all our lives. While my understanding of God is limited I'm grateful that I do have a testimony and that I do have the understanding that the things we go through in this life will be worth it.
