3 kids! What!

Everyone says that having 3 is the hardest.  Well I can honestly say that this has been really difficult!  The first few weeks I thought things were going really well until we went to the Doctor and Elsie wasn't gaining weight.  Ever since then life has been really hard!  Then pushed formula in my face and people said just give her a bottle after every feeding.  Well after like 2 days she completely refused to latch onto me at all.  That has resulted in pumping and supplementing with formula.  Because she will NOT latch onto me it is super hard!  Do you know how much work pumping is?  Like this morning Elsie was sleeping on me in the rocking chair and I started pumping when she woke up and decided she was hungry.  So I had to stop pumping to get a bottle ready and then go back to pumping while feeding her.  She also decided she was still hunger after the bottle was empty so I tried to give her some of what I was pumping and then pump again...what a process!  Some days I just want to do formula!  It would make life so much simpler and I wouldn't worry about my milk supply so much yet I know the benefits of breastfeeding and feel like I should try to pump as long as I can.  I also think it would be nice if she would latch onto me again...but until I try to conquer that full force I've been trying to get rid of thrush...all I've eaten the last few days is veggies and protein and a few corn tortillas.  I want carbs again but thrush is so so so painful!  So for now my intake of carbs will be very minimal.  Just being able to nurse her would be a dream come true!  I honestly wouldn't even mind waking up every 2-3 hours at night to feed her because it would be so much easier than what I am doing now.  It's amazing the simple things we take for granted when they come so easy to us.  I will never take for granted nursing a baby ever again and I hope that someday I will be able to nurse another baby...but for now I'm grateful for the beautiful daughter of God we have been blessed with and I look forward to watching her learn and grow. 

Just some fun pictures...

Fun pictures...I have a lot to learn about taking pictures but hope you enjoy them non the less. 

 My Mom is the only family that came to help with Elsie after she was born.  What a life safer she really was!  I'm so grateful for the sacrifice she made to come here!  Our girls really enjoyed their time with her! 

 These pictures are my 1st attempt at taking new born pictures.  I have a lot to learn and Elsie wasn't super cooperative with the picture thing.  She just kept waking up it was hard to get her to do anything I wanted her to do.